Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Goodbye 2014

Salam and Hi to all,

Less than 12 hours we will meet 2015!  How time fly so fast! What I've done so far throughout this 2014. 2014 have taught me a lot, everything. More challenges, feelings, friendship, works, and more.Countless. All remain as memories.

1st half of 2014: I've met new people from SBM Malaysia. The place where I've learnt a lot about real working life. Staying in KL with friends for 8 months, really challenging. I'm becoming more independence and friendly 'maybe' after this internship. I start to mingle with everyone. I manage to break my soft zone! Huge success for me I guess. More to come in 2015.!

2nd half of 2014:
I'm choosing my own path, taking major in Deepwater Engineering. I'm not doing the wrong choice at this moment! My classmate are very helpful, caring, loving, and macam - macam lah. I love them till end of my life. Playing with emotions, conflicts in group works seem to be normal for student. It gonna be more tough as I'm entering the working life. Dealing with people from different background and need to build chemistry in a short time.

Managing some works, dealing with new people taught me a lot. Thanks for giving me the chance! Counting days for graduation date, I learn to appreciate every single seconds in my daily life. Friends give a big impact in my life. Whenever my room-mate is not around, I'm gonna fall sick, yeah it's true! Even though we seldom have a long chit-chat, but deep in my heart I really love my room-mate. I learn to give and take, completing each other. Joining my 1st volunteer work was a great experience for me. Looking forward to join more.

Playing with feelings, yup someone has confessed to me. But, I still remain in silence about that matter. Is he really serious to have me and can accept me as who I am? Is he willing to wait for me around 3 - 4 years? Is he the chosen one or the right choice for me? Anything can happen today. I just want to be with my other half till end of life. Yeah, yeah, I'm 22 today and need to think about my future life. Where am I in next 5 years? Working in consultancy company? Doing post-graduate studies in Australia? Get married? Or having my 1st kid?

I always believe and know Allah has the best plan for me. I need to be more closer to Him to seek for His guidance in my life. I hope 2015 will be better than 2014 as I'm entering the new phase of my life. Engineer - to- be!

1000 pictures of 5 years in UTP have 1000 stories behind it. 

My vitamins for 5 years in UTP.

5 years and more to come!

IM4U with them.

Hope for the chance to be with PETRONAS! Amin.
My 2nd family for 5 years and more. 

Lia & Ina Carigali Holdings.

Saturday, November 22, 2014

Sky full of Stars

I'm bored, despite I'm having too much works to handle. Too many things to think. 

Can't wait to travel! 

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

The Fault in Our Stars

Salam and Hi to all,

It's been a long time I've never reach here! Not too busy, just too lazy.

So many things happened lately; conflicts are everywhere. but I just pretend to be cool #coolkids
Going out with a guy. Makan RBTM at 2am with geng penang.

Luckily, this friend always there for me. You are very supportive friend despite we've been 'masam muka' for long time kot. hahahaha. It's quite funny when thinking about it.

Alright, back to the topic. Have u guys watch this movie / read the novel? Oh God, this movie was really superb! I've bought the novel too. Love it too much! I can't imagine if I were at Hazel's place.
Augustus was really nice.

The song: All of the Stars by Ed Sheeran was really nice! I can't stop imagine, thinking if I were with a 'guy'. Hey, I've lepak dengan dia dah pun. Hope, there is chance, way and hope for the best if Allah has decide for us.

Go watch it!


Friday, October 17, 2014

Lautan - Yuna

Salam Jumaat to all,

Bell is ringing non stop since this week. Oh God, week 4 will be end soon. FYP! MSD!
My life will be turning upside down till week 15 I guess. Same as previous semester.

Back to the topic, have you guys heard this song by Yuna? I love it. Waiting to watch the movies. The best malay movie ever.

Actually, I keep asking myself , ' kenapa aku takde boyfriend? muka elok je, baik pun baik, tapi takde lagi'. My sisters also ask the same questions to me. They feel weird sebab kakak diorang takde pakwe lagi. Some of their seniors which is younger than me are getting married. What? Seriously? OMG.
Erin Malek pun dah married, good looking husband! Lucky her.

Siapa tak nak hidup berteman? Lumrah manusia kan. Allah cipta each of us berpasangan. Just tak jumpa lagi who is my pair. Certain people wondering, 'kenapa hati aku ni tak terbuka utk jejaka?'
Some of the guy asked me, 'kenapa kau susah sangat nak accept?' Once in a month pasti akan ada interview session untuk benda ni. #akakfamous

Sebenarnya, bukan tak nak, tapi tak ready. Sebab takut, tak nak hope too much, nanti frustrating.
Lagipun, tak habis study lagi. kena achieve one by one. I've also dah bookmark which guy that start to knock knock my heart. Kalau Allah cakap, 'Yes, dia lah untuk kamu', then I accept!
I hope that you are the one. If not, you deserve someone better than me :(

'If you really want me, you are willing to wait for me'. #ayatmintakpenampar

p/s: tolonglah muncul wahai jejaka yg berwajah putih berseri, rambut hitam ke dalam realiti hidupku ini.

Friday, October 3, 2014

Maps by Maroon 5

Salam & Hi to all,

I've arrived at Technip! There was an industrial talk from the engineers. Of course, the sleepiness kept circling around me. Talk start lepas lunch, mana la tak mengantuk!

The best part of trip was the ice-breaking session, UTP & UKM. Oh man, I can say that I'm good in making friend. (Kawan ramai, but the real friend is less than 5). Need to built the tower with sticks, walaupun nampak lame, but this task is quite challenging, due to pressure from client!

Alhamdulillah, Allah has answered my prayer. My 1st October 2014 was awesome,  and the past remain as history. I'll try to be a good person better from today. Thank you, Allah.

 Enjoy the pics below! Bye!

Class rep. & akak timah 
With  Mr Spar

Project managers tunjuk towers masing-masing. Nak mintak approval from bos Technip

Abg SBM, Abg SLB, 2 org Abg PTERONAS

Abg Tim & Abg K

" I can't even imagine where I would be today were it not for that handful of friends who have given me a heart full of joy. Let's face it, friends make life a lot more fun ", Charles R. Swindoll

" The greatest gift of life is friendship, and I have received it", Hubert H. Humphrey

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Road to graduation

Salam & Hi to all,

Less than 5 months to be graduated, hopefully.
Less than 5 months to enjoy the beautiful scenery of UTP.
Less than 5 months to play around with quizzes, assignments, projects, exams.
Less than 5 months to burn the midnight oil.
Less than 5 months to feel the stress and distractions from you.
Less than 5 months to mingle with friends, shouting, quarreling, hang out, gossip with each other.
Less than 5 months to learn with the best lecturers ever, only in UTP.
Less than 5 months to think about my future planning; work / postgraduate studies.

Final semester, may Allah ease everything till Jan15. Hope to graduate with flying colors!

#I'm gonna miss UTP a lot!

Iollz tak sabar nak baling topi gituuu.

Friday, September 12, 2014

I'm 22

Salam & Hi to all.

On 10th September 2014, I'm turning 22! Alhamdulillah and thanks for all the wishes.
I'm going to finish my studies soon, hopefully with flying colors. hahahaa
Then, go for family vacation. InshaAllah.

But, for this birthday, I'm waiting, waiting, waiting till the next day. I do care about it because he/she is my closed friend. Just a small mistake, it ruins everything. I've never seek revenge or keep that thing deep inside my heart. But, this situation really keep headache for me. I don't what to do, as I'm not good in 'pujuk memujuk' ni. I've already seek forgiveness and thanks him/her for everything.

Are u still mad / angry at me? Can we friend like we used to be? Just another 1 semester to go.
Maybe it is about egoistic problem? I realized that maybe I've hurt him/her. But, can you please back to normal? Sampai bila nak simpan.

'Nabi Muhammad pun maafkan umat dia, kita ni just manusia, who are we to judge others.'.

I'll always mention her/his name in my Doa for every prayers, hopefully Allah will open her/his heart to be friend with me again. Just remember one thing, that I'll never forget your kindness to me. 

So, enough with that. What are my wishes for being 22? 
Of course, I want to be a successful lady, graduate from UTP, get a job. I'm waiting to travel around the world. I hope I'll be in good health, dipanjangkan umur untuk menempuhi segala cabaran. One more thing, I hope I'll meet a guy that always appear in my dream. (putih je muka dia, nampak dr tepi & belakang view). Bestnya if I can get pilot like Zil Fezrul. xoxo

Pijaklah di bumi realiti. Bye!

Kau nak try tarian Kadazan ke?

It's good to be at home. 

Monday, August 25, 2014

Flying high

Salam & Hi to all. Kaifa halukum?

Dah ada bsic arab, so boleh speaking la eh. ? Sekarang, baru rasa boleh breathe dgn success nya, because my schedule is too tight! Too much works. Mulut ni tak habis2 berzikir utk ringankan beban. Jangan RIAK please!

Back to the topic, dealing with too many works, different people, of course I'll behave differently.
I'm not saying I'm good in everything. Can handle works efficiently, but, haiissh too difficult to say it.
Conflicts are everywhere. I don't like seeking revenge, that's not my behavior! I'm not born to fight, quarreling with others.

I've right to say something to my friend. But, i guess i'm wrong by trusting he/ she, because the big conflicts have arise.  I'm so sad, from now on i'll never trust people, i'll just keep my words inside my heart and never tell to others. I guess, I'm now looking like a cruel, bad girl in front of others. (Muka je cantik, baik, tapi perangai macam apa) I'm so sad! A small matter turn to big and tall building like SPAR platform, then have ruined the friendship!

Its ok sakinah. One more sem to go, then you are free. I always say it to myself. I'm not weak, but people are looking down at me. I know I'm not good in engineering principles, but I can learn step by step.

From now on, i'll never trust people. I'm sorry for everything, and I guess I just want to go far far far away from here.

(taken from Kak Maria's) 

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Self reminder

Salam & Hi to all,

Salam Ramadhan! How's your day? Me? Turning up side down. Projects, assignments, reports, etc..

Have you heard about the latest news? The attack on Gaza! Ya Allah, please protect my brothers,sisters there.

Kita ni sangat bertuah di Malaysia. Makanan berlambak-lambak, beautiful house, clothes, big cars, etc..
How about them in Gaza, Palestine? Sometimes, I do think about it.

My dadi used to say; " Kalau boleh dadi nak ambil sorang dua anak palestine jaga kt rumah, bagi makan, bagi pelajaran"

I'm thinking about that too! Hehehehe. The babies,kids are too cute! Poor them, still kena tembak, bakar, but syurga Allah menanti mereka.

"Ya Allah, please protect the Islam countries. Please save the ummah. Please save the babies, kids,women,elderly people. Let Islam win.."

What can I do today for them? Only DOA. I kept praying for them. I tried not to take McD anymore. Alhamdulillah, almost 2 months tak makan McD. Only for the sundae chocolate, need to cari pengganti.

Bye!. please pray for them!

(p/s: dah tengok video kak neelofa cerita pasal experience dia? here's the link:

- how about me? -

Monday, June 30, 2014

Move on

Salam & Hi,

Selamat berpuasa to all. I feel like want to kick the punch beg. zzzzz.

I hate when people does not give respond when it comes to urgent matter. The dateline is coming.
But, no respond from others.

I'm not saying that I'm really good in that kind of work, but please take your own initiatives.
I'm also struggling in searching for information, put away some of my works.

Don't depend too much on your members. How you want to struggle in future, if selalu behave like this?

I'm not the person like to shout at people, being crazy mad. I'm the person like easy going, always be cool and only react when I can't withstand anymore.

I need strength for another 1 1/2 semester  to deal with those people.


I used to read this frequently to make my works easier. Alhamdulillah, semua okay.
This doa dah jadi my best friend.

p/s: just need some doa to deal with those people.

Saturday, June 28, 2014


Salam and Hi to all!

Today, 28/6/2014 was my little sister's birthday! happy birthday b! dh besar pun, sama size with me. hahahaa =P

Today, my first field trip since I was in UTP from 2010 -.- . I went to Sapura Kencana Petroleum fabrication yard! I'm totally amazed with the work area, roof top view. Sapura is a 2nd big company after PETRONAS as what being said by the crew. When I look at the workers + hot weather, I asked myself:

'Am I going to be a fabricator later???'

Standing for 1 hour pun dah bising panas, how to do work for 8 hours + overtime??
Is it the same situation at offshore?? I hope not, because I really want to be there.
Oil platform, FPSO,and more..Ohh, please give me the chance at least once in my lifetime.

Enough with that, wishing all of you Selamat Berpuasa & Ihya Ramadhan :)
Alhamdulillah, we manage to meet Ramadhan. May Allah bless us every moment. Amin..

Module for onshore LPG.

Module for LPG.

Rooftop view.

Ready to make a move!

Working area. Jacket is on your right, topside module for Jacket is on your left.

Gaya pergi site #tahanpanas

With TimFox (classmate). Behind us is Jacket.

Akak final year 1st time pergi field trip -.-

Happy 14th birthday b!


Thursday, June 26, 2014

Tepi sikit

'Apa yang kau mahu
Semua ku beri
Apa yang kau mahu
Mahu apa lagi
Bagaimana aku pula
Aku serik
Jadi ku ingin jalan sana
Tolong tepi sikit
Tolong tepi sikit'

Salam and Hi to all. Oh, I feel like turning up and down for my final year. I need strength for another 2 semesters.

Why tepi sikit? I hate this feeling. The feeling when people does not appreciate you, does not even care about you. Maybe, i don't mind about it. but, i'm not that tough. 

It's different. The way you treat & behave.  I try to act like nothing happened, but I can't lie to myself.

p/s: i miss family. Emo x boleh nak balik, due to many workloads!

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Lets rock the final year!

Salam and Hi to all

Wow, why i'm so lazy to reach here?? I've many stories to be updated, but I'm quite busy lately.
Akak final year katakan. Well, now is Week 6 for my final 1st semester. Less than a year to be graduated soon, in sha Allah. Of course, I'm gonna miss my friends, girls, boys, classes,assignments, exams, utp, and moreeeee. cewahhh!

I've just finished my internship at SBM Offshore, Kuala Lumpur base. It is a very good company to learn with good environment. Good and supportive people, world leader in floating platform.
It was such a good opportunity for being there! Alhamdulillah. I've learnt a lot, meet new people, learn to be confident, independent. Waaah, I can even stand on my own unless I faced problems.
Good job, daughter!

As day goes by day in UTP, i'm kept thinking; 'Oh, i'm gonna miss this place that taught me a lot, from quite girl turn to be more independent and have strong survival skills' #lulzz
My friends (girls&boys), that always cheers up my life for 5 years in UTP. Gelak,ketawa,nangis,gaduh,lawan, tiru assignment quizzes, solution manual, final exam, ronda-ronda, makan,movies,jogs, swimming,meetings, and moreee. I can't even describe the whole of it!

Enough said, I just want to create the best memories in UTP! Lets enjoy the remaining days in UTP, my 2nd beloved place after home sweet home Penang!

Kak Marilyn

So sad, England is out from FIFA14. 

Mana prince charming ni? I tunggu lama dah ni

Akak akak.
With aunties or kakak2 that cheer up my 7 months of internship in SBM.

With girls at Ulu Kenas's waterfall. so syiokkk!

akak final year ber-selfie! 

Lantern festival katanya.

What I want by 2015.